Thursday, June 16

End of sem......

Hey there!
It has been quite some time since my last post. At the moment of writing this post, I've just come back from End-Of-Sem Dinner. It is pleasure to know that holiday is just around the corner. However, the prospect of getting a place in Oxford made me rethink that. I have tons of things to do this 3-week holiday including, UKCAT, personal statement, and English. Therefore, a productive holiday is not just a must but essential. Wish me a good productive holiday.

While I am in front of my lappie, writing and thinking, suddenly,...

Knock! Knock!
Syafiq, please collect these debts. (handling me two piece of papers with a list of debts to collect by tonight.)
I guess, I have to complete this task first other than completing two meeting minutes and two-page biology homework.

I'll tell more about my life these past 2 weeks in more details later on. Anyway, have a good holiday everyone.

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Saturday, June 4

King's birthday and me

Hey there!
It is the King's birthday and for the first time in my life, I appreciates this holiday because actually I have class today. Because of the king, I get extra holiday. Alhamdulillah.
Date: 6th of June, 2011 「6月4日」
Day: Saturday 「土曜日」
Here is what I did today. Going back to sleep after performing Subuh prayer and missing breakfast. Wake up at 9.00 a.m. and watched Hana yori dango 「花より男子」. After finishing 1 episode, continue sleeping.

Wake up again for the second time and read 'Eragon' by Christopher Paolini. Bring back my old memories of novel marathon at Sisme with Ijam, Haizeer and Siti Nadiah. Pondering how time does fly away.

After some time, get back to study table. Arrange the plan for today. Aimed to do at least 8 set of past year papers despite the fact that I am going to pasar malam at 5.00 pm and at the time of writing, I just managed to complete 1 set.

And yet still thinking of writing this blog. Had two more tasks to accomplish by 12.00 pm - UKCAT and personal statements planning. 

Gorged with so many tasks to do, decided to take it easy on the King's birthday. So, I am just going to stick to 8 past papers for today. Let us put UKCAT and personal statement to a later day.

While doing al these stuffs, I really missed weekends at Sisme where I spend all available free time sleeping, talking, gossiping, making conspiracy and playing with my friends. The situations here are just different.

Everyone are doing their own thing. It is hard to find anyone who get along well with me. What I want to do is not necessarily what they want to do. I love the school days where there are seasons for almost everything. Rubics cube, novel marathon, badminton games, tennis etc. 

I am not saying that there is no such facilities here nor I am not grateful for what I already have, It just hard for me to find friends as in Sisme where I can comfortably talk about anything. Here, everyone seems like pursuing their own personal space. Judging by their body language, I can simply say that though it is not applicable to everyone especially my Malay friends. I am not being racist but it is the truth. Regardless of that, I have a few good Chinese friends and they are really nice.

I have many good friends too. I am glad that at least I get along very well with all Garnet members. At least, when I am bored I can simple colonise their room and making lots of noise. 

In my chalet, I hardly can do much noise because my chalet mates are like silence keeper. They really are. When there is a noise, there will be some kind of annoying sound of walls being knocked repeatedly. Why don't you just at least say something. It really makes me annoyed but I will not care because you have not make it clear with me what do you want. If you want complete silence, then talk and confront me and absolutely not by doing that annoyed sound.

Anyway, I should just adapt to the new surroundings. Only those who can adapt survives, according to Mr Charles Darwin I guess. Therefore, I choose to go out to Tanjung Malim with Shauqi, Nazrin Sabah and Nazrin Afifi. At least, I get to spend some time with frineds. Most of my JPA mates are struggling in their own room either 'kiasu'ing or sleeping or watching movies or anything. I do not want to disturb them. Let just give them some personal space.

This is what I realised about people. Everyone wants their own personal space. As for me, I am quite comfortable of sharing what I feel, what I did and why to peoples. But of course not to everyone but to my families and friends. But the peoples here are different. You can't just simply interrogate deeper into their actions. At some points, they will stop entertaining your question if it gets too personal. They only share when they feel they want to. In simple words, liberty. Is that so?

Actually, this is a real case scenarion. In my first sem, I got some kind of problem with this one guy. I just barely know him but I was close to him and so I ask him a lot of questions thet he got annoyed with me. Since that time he start spacing out from me. After a few moment, I realised I should not do this and this is how I caught a glimpse on the notion of personal space. 

Also, I might be wrong about this but this is what I can infer when I watched tons of movies and dramas. This is not a life-experience so do not take it seriously. I will know better when I am in UK later. For the time being, in order to adapt well with people you should respect their personal space and their difference. At a point when they are ready to be open to you than that is the right time fro you to nurture him. I am saying this in terms of 'dakwah'.

Psychologically speaking, my study is not so reliable because there are just merely my own opinion and not a real study. Credits to Safuan Sabri for enriching the pschological aspects of me.

The more I think, the more I belive that Sisme is so different than this. There is no such problem like personal space. Perhaps the reason for that is the fact that everyone are used to share everything in the hostel. 

This a lesson of life only learnt through experience. Sisme experience will always be a wonderful one and I am always comfortable to talk to ex-SBPIS. I hope that I can see my friends back in Sisme. I really missed them.

But life has to go on. Friends are like sand in the beach. You have so many of them but you have to choose the best sand out of millions. It is always good to befriend everyone but do not let them influence you in a bad way. This is what makes human such a unique species.
Move on, shall we!
じゃね!

Extra note:
I am planning to enter this essay competition where I have to write a maximum of 5,000 words essay with no lower limit to discuss about 'Is human species special?' Feel free to join if you want to. Further details can be obtained here. The deadline is 30th of June, 2011.

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Friday, June 3

Biology Mood「生物学の気分」

Hey there!
I have only 1 paper left before I ends my first year of A-Level. Time flies, isn't it? 1 year is just too short to be true.

Anyway, I am here to share that I am totally in absolute bio mood. Why is that the case? The reason is not just because of what I did and will I do for this last paper, but because of the fact that I have finally in a position to study the REAL thing in biology that has a lot or parallels to medicine. Also, something that is not just a mere repetition of SPM but completely new and different in a way that favours me, emphasising my passion. Although the AS Biology topics are much deeper than SPM, I felt like there are not much difference between SPM and A-Level in terms of what I am studying.

But now, the circumstance changes. The A2 topics are far more interesting than the AS topics, obviously, though I still regard 'Transport', 'Human Gas Exchange System' and 'Infectious Diseases' as something interesting. Enough with that.

Right now also, I have just finished doing some preliminary readings on respiration and seriously I like it a lot. The way I used to think how energy in a glucose molecule being harnessed to produce ATP, completely shifts. The process is not just a single step where you get all 38 ATP molecules at once. Instead it is a combination of plethora of reactions pathway characterised into three main categories which are glycolysis, Krebs cycle and electron transfer chain. That is totally not the main point though.

However, it is not just entirely about respiration that I am promoted into a slightly higher energy level tonight  (It means I am excited, think biologically will you!), it is the fact that I have successfully draw a starting line between leisure and works that promotes me into a higher energy level, like a sunlight that gives a boost of energy to the electrons, though it is still in dire needs of more reinforcement. Nevertheless, I achieved the bottom line - making progress.

In toto, in order to be in the peace of mind without jeopardising your future is to plan work swiftly but wisely and work out the plan seriously. Insya Allah, a proper line will be drawn between all the necessary and desired things to achieve personal goals without any failure.

I think, that's all for now. Have a productive weekend everyone, Insya Allah. 
じゃ
またね

Note-to-self:
My A2 chemistry teacher is Miss Aqilah. I hope I'll cope well with her. Insya Allah.

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Thursday, June 2

Chemistry aftermath!

Hey there!
I have just finished my chemistry paper1. Seriously, it was very tough. I am glad that I am not totally blank because at least I got the ideas to answer the questions. The thing that worries me most is that I do not have the gut to say that I am over it. Never mind. Leave everything to the most superior to decide for us, Allah.

Another 5 days and I will be facing my last opponent, biology paper 1. It sounds easy but I shall never underestimate my opponent. Also a little bit of overestimation will be fine as long as I do not lose the  confidence. Insya Allah.

I reckon that the path of becoming a doctor is never easy. It just me underrating everything relating to it so that it seems easy to acquire. The truth is it is terribly difficult. Seriously. Not because the fact that it is impossible. But because of the notion that you have to encounter so much obstacles along the way in a way that you need to be aggressive in order to keep winning. Be it you yourselves, people around you or even the circumstances. Everything will become a barrier sooner or later.

6 years. Just as long as a kindergarten student needs to get into a secondary school. During that long time, everything can happens. It is up to me to do what is necessary to ensure that I reach my aims be it the short term or the long term. I always said that I want to help others. But I am just being idealistic and not pragmatic enough. Therefore, in order to be able to help others I have to first nurture myself into something good enough to help others.

However, I have been wasting a lot of time doing unnecessary things. I admit it. As a teenager, that is a norm, I think. In fact I have only 10 months left of being 19. I see the need to do all sort of thing for many purposes but I lack the energy. Insya Allah, by discussing about this, something amazing will pops into my mind. It reminds me of 'the 7 habits' promoted by Stephen Covey - something that I learnt from Muslim Leadership Camp last April where I lost my very own spectacle. I am not just doing things to succeed alone but to bring everyone I could towards a better prospect of life. Also, to a level where everyone is interdependent between each other.

It is therefore very important to be conscious of many aspects of our lives. At least, that is what I am aiming to nurture in KYUEM for another year before being put into the real scenario of living on my own in UK/Ireland. Let us change our paradigm for the better. As for me, I am completely aware that there are still a lot of things to work on. No matter what, the bottom line is to enjoy what you are doing.

For that reason, I am very delightful to hear the 'Indonesian news'.
To my younger sister who is going to study in Indonesia this August. Do your best. Deep inside me, I know you can in fact even better than me. The problem is you are too dependent on others. I might not be in the right position to tell you this but trust me, always do self-reflection. The path towards self-improvement will be revealed. If you need any help, please note that you have everyone around you to ask for.

がんばってね!
じゃね!

Note-to-self:
I have been talking a lot but the real thing is I am in the same position as everyone. There are lot of things in life to endure. Also, mistakes to be made and learnt from it. Do not afraid of falling down. But afraid of not being able to get up after falling down. Life has to go on. So, move on! Shall we! Insya Allah. Everything will be just fine.

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Chemistry Mood!! 「化学の気分」

Hey there!
Another one and a half hour, I'm going to sit for my chemistry paper 1 examination and yet I'm still in front of my computer writing this post. I just need a moment to write for a break.

I've just learned few things that I should have learned long time ago, balancing a redox reaction equation using oxidation number. This makes me pondering. Why now? Why not before? Maybe I haven't done enough exercise. This is something to be watched next time around. Note-to-self, do thorough preparation from the beginning of the course. Nevertheless, I'm glad that I found these kind of unique things in my exercise. At least, I won't be surprised in the exam. However, I have to prepare for the worst since CIE likes surprises. Therefore, the most important thing for me to be able to do very well is to handle surprises. That requires a more detailed and thorough preparations, something that seems to be similar to doing a lot of exercises but with a different approach in mind.

This is what I want to share with you readers. Life is full of surprises. Sometimes you have to do what you don't want to do or sometimes you don't even like in the first place. That is the challenge. So, face surprises with a lot of smiles and believe in yourself. Insya Allah, you will be just fine. Most importantly, always pray to Allah may He grant us the ability to handle surprises successfully and with ease. Insya Allah.
じゃ。
がんばってね!!

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。
化学-chemistry
気分-mood

Wednesday, June 1

ただいま「I'm home」

Hey there!
Right now, I have another two papers to go which include chemistry paper 1 and biology paper 1. Chemistry will be tomorrow while biology will be next Tuesday. Up to this point, I think I wasted quite a considerable amount of time doing unnecessary things. I really hope that I can get the same momentum as in SPM. I don't know what took it away from me but I do know that I had to work harder in order to get it back.

Anyway, I'm back in college with a brand new 'me' and a refreshed mind. I am not intended to write long this time. Let the spirit of 'kiasu' and 'tawakkal' overwhelmed ourselves these last days of the AS examination.

Exams Fixture
Thursday (2nd of June 2011) ==> Chemistry Paper 1
Tuesday (7th of June 2011) ==> Biology Paper 1
AS ends and A2 will then kicks in
ASが終わる。そしてA2が始める。


私は「一リットルの涙」という映画を見る。
だから罪「つみ」です。
なぜなら明日は化学の試験だ。
でもあきらめてをいけない。
がんばりますよ!
自分を信じましょうか!
じゃ


Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。