Sunday, December 9

冬旅行

どうもみなさん。
まだ短い文書。

どこにいきますか?
イタリア:ローマとフロレンーズとミラノとヴぇネシアにいきます。

いつ?
十二月十六日から二十日まで

誰といきますか?
同居人のシュックリさんと同居人のフィットリさんとザッムリさん

なんでいきますか?
飛行機でいきます。

では、またね!
Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

New phase of my life

It has been about half a year that I do not write in my blog. It has been quite rusty I would say. However, おひさしぶり!Finally, I managed to get myself to write something in this blog.やっと、文書を書ける。

Anyway, I don't know if you realise it or not that there is a slight change in the title.

To start off with, just a few update in case you didn't know. I am currently a first year student at King's College London reading pharmacy (note MPharm) and in a week time, the first term of my life as a first year MPharm student is about to end. 意味はまだ冬休みがはじめる!うれしいよ!

So far, I find studying pharmacy very interesting.There is extensive amount of chemistry and biology in it though it emphasises more on the chemistry part. On top of scientific knowledge, there is a significant of clinical experience. One of the most awesome experience I have had so far is the chance to shadow a pre-registration pharmacist at St. Thomas's.

I am now approaching the end of my first term and hence my trial period is about to end. Starting from second term onward, I am going to decide what are the things that I really want to do.

I would like to start with a few observations and experiences during the first term.


  1. Generally, first year MPharm is not-so-hectic course where I have only 3 hour lectures in the morning on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. On top of that I have another 3 hours of laboratory sessions in the evening on Thursday and Friday. Simply, I have a lot of free time. I have experimented with so many different ways of spending the free evening. Among those are studying in the library, be at home, doing some administration stuff and sometimes just taking a nap. 
  2. In terms of money, I can actually save a lot of money if I reduce the amount of eating outside and do more cooking but I am worry about the nutritional aspects of my food since I need sufficient nutrition not just for healthy living but also to prevent diseases in the future. Also, I spent a significant amount of money in accommodation and household.
  3. After experiencing many different areas that a pharmacist can work in like research in industry or academia, clinical pharmacist in the hospital or a community pharmacist, I felt that I am very interested to work in a hospital. The reason is still a grey area even for me but I do feel some sort of good feeling about working in the hospital. It is challenging as you encounter more complicated cases and that is what intrigues me; the complexity and the amount of work that you have to put in to solve problems. Having done that, I felt more satisfied as I would be able to get out more of myself i.e. I am pushing myself to the limits.
I guess that is just one of my observations that I could think of right now. (I am taking a break from studying chemical kinetics. Can you imagine the level of thinking that I have now? More than words can describe. So let me take a break. Hence, lack of ability to recall some stuffs...Heh...:))

So, I have decided on several things. I want to reach my full potential. In order to do that, I need to push myself to the limits. I need a very strong internal energy to climb a reaction coordinate with very high activation energy so that I can reach my full potential. Just an analogy to describe my vision (heh), let us take a look at the energy profile diagram for the process of converting graphite to diamonds.
Taken from http://www.chem.wisc.edu/~newtrad/CurrRef/BDGTopic/BDGtext/BDGDmnd.html
Right now, I am at the Carbon(graphite) position and I want to be at Carbon(diamond), can you see the amount of energy that I have to put in to drive the reaction forward. Same goes to me. I need a constant source of energy so that I can continuously goes towards my dream. Hence, this blog is one of my sources of energy. Another interesting thing, can you see that with catalyst, I can reach the transition states faster? I consider that as opportunity. This is indeed a reminder for me to always look for opportunity.

OK... enough of that science bit. To sum up everything, I just want to say that I have decided that I want to push myself to the limits and in order to successfully do so, I need a constant source of motivation. From my observations, I really enjoyed working in a hospital environment. Combining everything, I set a target. After graduating with first class (A+++) MPharm, I am going to continue with medicine at Oxford for four years, completing my housemanship in Malaysia for the next two years, proceed to Doctor of Philosophy in certain areas in medicine that I have yet to decide possibly in Japan then continue my training as a medical doctor researcher in Malaysia then finally contributing vast amount of experience that I have yet to acquire to Malaysia as a professor while at the same time continuously improving the standard of Malaysian healthcare and education. That is my vision in this world for now. It may change but that is not the focus. The point is I have something that I am aiming at. However, having such an achievement in this world is not good enough to be granted paradise in the Hereafter. There has to be elements of remembering Allah and practicing Islams completely. That is something that I am working on.

So yeah, I had to stop now. I still had some things to do with regards to chemical kinetics.

じゃ、この文書の目的は夢がつける。(Not sure whether 夢 is the right word for it.)
医者になりたいですからがんばります。よくがんばります。
それから、勉強しましょう。

いつも、よく、ときどき、たまに、あまり........ません、ぜんぜん...........ません==>words to describe frequency

お父さん、父「ちち」、お母さん、母「はは」==> 家族だ。

今日は十二月九日です。明日は十二月十日です。

今午後十時四十八分です。日曜日です。

合格したいですから、がんばろう!

では、またね!

私のロンドン写真:
私と同居人のフィットリさんが地下鉄にいる。

私は「ワガママ」という店にいる。

この居室が大好きです。

私はグリーンウィーチュにいる。

好きな写真。アレクサンドリアパレスにいる。



Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Thursday, June 21

End of A-Level's reflection

どうもみなさん!元気ですか?
안녕하세요!

Hello there!

This whole week, I have been attending many farewell events among those are MUSCOM Farewell Night (aka Wida'), Garnet Farewell Party, and Ms Madeline Farewell Tea Party.

I am going to leave KYUEM soon.
Although my time here is just 2 years, but I have tons of memories and learning points.
Studying in a boarding school, the question of 'ikhtilat' is not really a matter of concern because everyone understands it. You can easily take care of that. The environment in school also helps towards achieving that.

But going to KYUEM is indeed like going to a different environment. I would say it is a mini UK. You can get all sort of experience that you will most probably get in the UK though to a lesser extent. I think this is something that really taught me a lot.

With regards to food, in school, you don't really have to question people in order to know the authenticity of its 'halal'. But in college, you have to be very careful. In a way, it forces you to take a deeper look into the teachings of Islam to be absolutely sure about things.

It's not just about food but also 'ikhtilat', prayer times, activities being held and etc.

I learned how to balance between protecting my faith and getting along with the society.
I admit that I am not perfect and I am still in learning process.
However, one thing for sure, whatever approach you take to balance these issues, you can never apply it to your own environment.

To illustrate this, let me give you an example.

When I went to Aberdeen last December (it was roughly on December 2011), I heard from Zulikhwan, a senior from KYUEM who studied medicine in Aberdeen, that occasionally, medical students held events in bars and pubs. See. This is problematic to us right? How are you going to go about it? Are you not going to be alone and not joining with them? Initially, I was skeptical. I think it is better to just clearly say to them that I am a muslim and as a muslim, we don't go to places like these. It might sounds good but in terms of practical, it's not.

Considering that you are the minority, it is a good idea to get along with other medical students. However, I can't compromise my faith. So, what I think is that, before they ask me to join them in such events, what I think I will do is I will spend my lunch time eating with them and socialising while at the same time making clear my stand. If it is not compulsory to go to such places (i.e. you need to go to obtain credit hours or likewise), I would try my best to avoid it because I don't think I would be able to control myself.

I think, that is why, mutual understanding with friends is the crux of the matter. I need to gain trust and understanding from my fellow course mate before they ask me to do such thing so that I am not in the position that I could not say no. Thinking about it, I think this is very difficult. This is one of my struggles in UK later on. I will definitely utilize class time to socialize during day time and get along with them. It sounds so not practical, and on top of my introvert, this is perhaps the most difficult task for me. So, if you think I am out of limits, please remind me. Task at hand: overcome introvert, build understanding and trust among course-mates.

What I mean by not applying to your own environment is that it might be OK to sit and chat with girls in university openly (and I should keep in mind that this is wrong), I can never make it as a habit in my own environment. I have to keep reminding myself that it is wrong to do so but considering the ultimate aim, it is more important to foster these understandings. Nevertheless, I should make continuous attempt to correct this as time goes on. To do on my own, it is very difficult.

Problem solved? Not necessarily. I still have to find circle of friends that are able to continuously help me to be on straight path. This is where 'usrah' comes in. My stand is simple with respects to 'usrah'. It is a great medium for me to enhance my knowledge of Islam and practice Islam but it is not going to be my ultimate aim in UK. In other words, 'usrah' is a significant part of me but not as siginificant as my academics. It is a medium to teach Islam not a medium to force me to do something or embrace on some sort of political ideology or likewise. Everything is up to substantial consideration.

Done with this.
Moreover, experience in KYUEM taught me to question everything. Even Brother Shahkirit encourage us to continue questioning things. Of course, with regards to things beyond our ability like heavens, hells, satan, angel etc, extra careful must be in place so that our aqeedah will stay healthy. In the attempts to find the answers, you cannot simply use your logical thinking but you have to pursue the knowledge. Therefore, any approach to find answers to questions is not solely by logical thinking but through detail pursuit of knowledge.

It is never wrong to question things but it might be wrong if your approach is not right. The more you ask, the more confident you will be and don't rely on single person. The more people you ask, the more reliability it will be. It is best to refer back to Al-Quran and As-Sunnah.

That is how I am going to move on. Question things and find answers to them by meticulous study from reliable sources.

Anyway, I guess that is it for now.
May Allah bless us with His blessings!
Insya Allah.

Till we meet again!
안녕히계세요!
じゃあ、また、後で!

Work smarter and harder! University life is so different than secondary school's life!
Operate outside your comfort zone to get the best out of yourself. 

P/S: I might continue writing about this tonight after my final End of Semester Dinner 2012.

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Saturday, June 16

What does actuary means to me?

안녕하세요 여러분!
Hello everyone!

I just finished my A-Level last Monday. Now, I am on leave for about 3 months. With respect to that, I think it is time for me to share my updates.

I have received a few offers to read medicine and actuarial science. After thinking about it carefully  and discussing with my parents, I believe that this is the best way forward for me.

You must be wondering what I am talking about right? Well, it is regarding my placement. I have decided to go to City University London to read Actuarial Science. This is where I am going to spend my next 3 years.

Well, I have received a lot of questions. Among them are as follow:

1. Why actuarial science? Aren't you passionate about medicine?
2. Why must City University London while in fact you got several other offers to read medicine elsewhere but UK?

Among all other offers that I received, this one offer from City University London is totally irresistible.

Firstly, it's actuarial science course is one of the best in UK.

Secondly, it offers 8 exemptions for Institute of Actuaries, UK. This is definitely a significant advantage in my journey to become a certified actuary.

Thirdly, City University London location is strategic that it is located near to the financial district of London hence giving me a lot of opportunity to meet and talk to great people in the world's biggest company. A good opportunity for me to learn how to mingle with business and financial community.

Fourthly, the offer from City University London has received a clear recognition from JPA that I will be able to maintain national scholarship. No more hassle.

Finally, two of my siblings had already embarked on their journey to become a doctor. Therefore, I guess it would be good if I could try something different.

With respect to the first question, most people were surprised because actuarial science is totally a difference  subject than medicine. But personally speaking, before I made up my mind to be a doctor, I first chose to be an actuary.
Therefore, it is not a question of lack of passion but largely a question of opportunity and which one I choose to take.

Deep within me, the love for medicine will always flourished but not to the extent of making it as a career. This does not mean that I don't have any passion for actuarial science but instead my passion for actuarial science is way higher than my passion for medicine. It is similar to my passion to other things like learning languages, reading and writing.

Something that I learned about myself these past few months is the fact that I have many passions and interest and this is burdening me. Passion, interest and love alone could not be an indicator of my choice of future career. Therefore, I look to opportunity in front of me and grab it while I can.

I guess that is it for now. Till we meet again. Bye!

안녕히계세요!

じゃあ、また、後で!

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Syafiq's New Look

どうもみなさん!お元気ですか?お久しぶりですね。
Hello everyone! How are you doing? it has been a while, isn't it?

Today, it is the 16th of June 2012. My blog has been idle for approximately 4 months now and the reason for that is simply because of my lack of time due to poor time management and a lot of unexpected occurrence. Anyway, I am back on track now. This time, I am going to alter my policy on this blog. Before, all I want from this little cute blog is just a little bit of space for me to be myself.

Now that I realised how powerful a blog is that it can contribute to sway people's mind especially to us young people, I decided that this is going to be a journal of my journey in this world to achieve my aims and goals. It is pretty much like what I did in form 1,2 and 3 and what Bobby Pendragon did for every little adventure that he encountered in his letter to Mark [if you read Pendragon, you'll know about this. I'm so sorry that I don't want to write about it here.]

Therefore, this new policy which I am going to call it "Syafiq's new look" (pretty much like Eisenhower's New Look and Khrushchev New Look), is going to resemble everything that happens in this blog. Moreover, this blog is also an attempt to document things that happened to me so that it can be useful later on.

My New Look consists of a few sets of rules as follow:

1. Unless there is a specific reference, all claim and statement is just merely my own opinion. So, it is always up to intelligent discussion. By intelligent I mean is that don't take it personally. Take it professionally.

2. I will try to write as frequent as possible but the period of my writing is ultimately dependent on my study. In other words, my first priority will always be study over this blog.

3. All writings are intended to be self-reflection and would most probably be based on some little readings. It might be a little bit biased or not representing the whole picture, but the main point is, this blog is a medium to make myself better each day.

OK now that I laid a foundation for writing this blog, I am going to commence it straight away.
Well then, that is it for now.
Till we meet again.
じゃあ、また、後で!

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Friday, February 3

February mood

Hello there!
How are you guys feeling? Great? Alhamdulillah...
Well, I am feeling on top of the world today because Allah has given me the will to write in my lovely blog.

You know, these past few months are very difficult to me. I felt like being pushed on the brink of a mountain with nothing to hold on except my tiny two feet. Just imagine. You are standing at the very end of a very high cliff and you are constantly being pushed off the cliff. The only thing that you have to compose yourself is the fact that both of your feet is still touching the ground. In simple terms, a sense of insecurity. Anyway, after thinking it through, I am no longer in this stage of trying to get myself off the cliff but already in the air. (something like bungee jumping ... weeee)



And now the only thing that I could do is to just hope that there is some kind of safety net waiting for me down there. This is not something that sane people will be able to do easily because it is so difficult. This is when we should put our faith in Allah because Allah will never let his servant fall for nothing. There must be some kind of goodness waiting for us down there that we might not be able to see yet. Enough of the metaphors, let me get straight to the point.

Almost all of my close friend in KY have already got their first choice university and now the only thing that they have to worry is to get the required grades. Well, it is not a wise comparison to be made because they are not future medical student. Anyway, it does give me some kind of pressure. Not really!

I do realise that medics got their offer around late March. Therefore, I should not be worried so much. However, the thing that worries me is that some of my friend who applied to Aberdeen had already gotten their interview offers but not me. After sending an e-mail to the admission tutors, I felt very relieved because they haven't finish considering all the applicants. Meaning, they haven't rejected me yet. That is something to look forward to. Just as small hope as this is enough to make me feel better. That is me now. Maybe I should get a girlfriend now... haha... just kidding...

That is it for now. Have a good day everyone.
Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。

Sunday, January 8

The opening to 2012

Hello there!
I am terribly sorry for abandoning you. You know it is a tough time for me and I just want to be alone. However, things are becoming better for me. There are so many life-changing events in last December.I will try to write some once I feel like it because again this blog is a random post from me, right.

Anyway, I am back in college in the middle of tons of interview. The first one is interview with IUMC (Ireland University Medical Consortium) which I am going today! The next one would be this Wednesday which is the interview with Liverpool university.

I think that is it from me this morning. I will write more after I finish my interview...

Dr SyafQ.92 - 4A* - (^-^) 私の文書を読んでくれてありがと。